Time check : 4.24 A.M .



Right . So my birthday is comingggg ~ ! Am I excited ? Oh , HELL NO . These are like my last few days of saying that I am still 1x years old . LE SIGH . Though I'm still not officially counted as an adult yet , it doesn't make me feel any younger at all I swear .

Life sure is gonna suck once you start being a working adult , no doubt about that . And if you ask if I have any plans on how I should celebrate my 20th birthday ? I have none . YAYYY . Not sure if I should be happy about it .

Cause #1 , no outings = no spending of money .
#2 , no plans = stay home ( eat & sleep all I want ) .
I don't have to wake up early to prepare to go out and everything . BUT , none of all those means no presents this year . WAAAA T.T

Then again , who needs presents right ? Shall just look on the bright side and enjoy my naps . Hopefully my family would be nice enough to bring me out for a delicious meal of something .

I hate it I hate it I hate it to face the reality every birthday.
I hate to see that nothing changed. I’m always alone.
It’s just I’m used to being alone. It’s totally fine.
But when my birthday comes it hurts the most.
I feel really alone, forgotten, I hate my birthday.
I feel like an existence who once lived in this world,
who is long dead and forgotten.
I wish I could be with one person on the most lonely day of my life.

Alrights , time to hit the sack ! Good night readers xx.
P.s. some how I think that I look like you in this picture .