Time check : 6:57 A.M .



So.. Finally everyone graduated after being overly excited till I didn't even slept the night before the ceremony . This is a point in my life where I think I should start figuring out who I am and what I wanna be .

But everyone seems like they know what they wanna be after graduating , be it pursuing a degree , starting a business , getting a job or even just enlisting into NS , that's something to do . But me ? I have totally no clue on where I should go , what I should do , or how should I do it .

Life in TP , as much as I disliked it , I appreciated it because of the friends I've met and the things that I have learnt that has allowed me to grow into the person I am today .

If there was one thing I ever regret , it was not taking a graduation picture with my ex boyf .  That awkward moment when I bumped into his family face to face and I don't even dare to say hi to them . I just smiled awkwardly and walked away to find my family .

However , I felt relieved , shocked and happy upon seeing my family and when they passed me a bouquet of flowers I feel so fucking proud like I'm the star of today or something HAHAH . So here are some photos of it !




Hi ! Domo wants to take a picture with my pretty flowers too . Pretty awesome right ? Hahaha . BUT SIGHH . I've always dreamed of taking graduation photos together with my ex , I should probably get that thought of my head now since it's already impossible .

Time check : 2:36 P.M .



I'm craving sex , FOOD , a big bed to myself , someone to cry to , and also alone time . I'm tired , hungry , sad , angry , aching , and a little bit giddy . My back hurts , my head hurts , my shoulders ache , my chest aches and my uterus hurts . I want to cry , shout and also sing .

Say hello to my PMS . I will be over here , crying alone . But don't touch me without asking , because I will surely kill you . Life as a woman seriously sucks like hell . No joke . We bleed out of our crotch for 3-5 days EVERY MONTH and during that time , while suffering from all that pain from all parts of our body & you know .. bleeding non-stop , we are expected to face people as if nothing is happening.

Why do woman have to bleed every god damn month for days and suffer the pain on a regular basis that we cannot escape from ? It ain't easy being female when it’s this time if the month , really .

This is the first ever time I'm suffering from PMS I fucking swear . It's like my head , my back , my abdomen hurts , my bowels have declared war on me , I'm hungry , I'm tired , I'm aching , and I just want to curl in my bed .

But here I am , expected to put on a smile and pretend I don’t have to deal with monthly physical hell . & if I mention it to people , I'll get those disgusted reactions from most people . Though periods alone are enough to be that much of a burden , don’t forget about childbirth !!!

Sigh . Why can't it be men who deals with all that shit ?

Time check : 4:28 A.M .



Some days are harder than others .
Some days I can't even think .
Some days I can't eat or sleep .
Some days I can't even leave my bed .
Some days I feel like giving up .
Some days are okay .
Some days I don't even cry .
Some days I don't miss you as much .
Some days I don't need to fake a smile .
Some days I almost feel happy again .
Some days I know I will be okay .

& today ? I just wanna hide my feelings and run away from everything .